Emotional

I'm having a very rough day today and it's only 7:30 AM. I woke up this morning and all I could think about was the fact that in a little over 2 months I will be delivering our baby. Then a short time later, she'll be taken from me into the Intensive Care Unit. I'm so saddened and distraught over the fact that a living being I've been growing inside of me for 9 months will not be directly in my care after she's born. I was also thinking about how I won't get the opportunity to nurse her. Nursing my Izzy was challenging, but it was an amazing bonding time that we shared. It was something for just the two of us. Sure I can still pump and help to keep Mia as healthy as possible with my milk, but it won't be the same. None of it will. We are trying to be as prepared as possible for all of this logistically, but I'm having such a hard time preparing myself emotionally.