Quickly Approaching

A week from now we will be loading up our car and heading to Denver in anticipation of my delivery. Two weeks from now, my Mia will be here. Everything is happening very quickly now and I'm getting both excited and nervous. I'm so excited to meet my baby girl and see what she looks like. I'm excited to see Izzy's reaction to her baby sister and to see Art hold our daughters together. I'm excited to hopefully be able to hold her myself and feel her little hand in mine. While all of that is in the front of my brain and those are the things I'm trying to focus on, I can't help but think about how different things are going to be this time around. Although I had a c-section with Izzy, I'm nervous about my own surgery. I'm nervous about how long it's going to take for me to recover. I'm nervous about how Mia's heart will look once she is out in the world and, of course, nervous about her first surgery. I'm nervous about how Izzy is going to react to everything that will be going on and about living in an unknown place for more than a month. Everything will be foreign to us. Deep down I am a true believer that everything happens for a reason. I'm still not sure of the reason for all of this. One day I'll know, but for now it's hard. Every part of it is hard. I want the best life possible for my family and I just hope we're doing the right thing. I feel Mia kick inside of me and I wonder what kind of life she'll have down the road. I wonder what kind of life we'll all have. Then I look at my Izzy and hope that we also made the right choice for her. Being a mother is definitely the hardest job there is, no one will ever be able to convince me otherwise.