I've been thinking a lot lately about Mia's upcoming surgery and quite frankly, it scares the crap out of me. I know of 3 other heart warriors that have earned their angel wings in the past couple of months and while I try to look past the thought that those children aren't Mia, the fact is, they're similar in many ways. Mia's third open heart surgery, the Fontan, should be her last for many years. We can only hope that it is. And while that is an extremely comforting thought, I find myself constantly wondering, but what if? Then my thoughts turn to a place that I hate and fear takes over.
Yesterday I had to go to the pharmacy to pick up some of Mia's many medications. On my drive home, I was thinking about how unfair it all is. I haven't thought that way in awhile, but knowing her surgery is coming quickly, the dark cloud now looms. No matter the fear, no matter the unknown, no matter how unfair I feel like it is, I have to be strong for my little girl, her big sister, and my wonderful husband. I have to treasure each day and I have to have hope. I have to let my fears out and keep the hope inside.
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